A week of 2013 had gone by, as if the whole 2012 didn’t really happen. During the holidays I was catching up with friends a lot, maybe because I isolated myself for the whole time I was recovering from my injury, both my right ring finger (which was fractured from an exercise during my Level 6 POP workshop in Tw end of Oct) and my recent dramatic disaster relationship.
Talking about my 2012, as if it was a dream. I didn’t even notice that I actually did many many things. I went to India for a month for yoga & meditation, went to London & Paris for 2 weeks over my 33th birthday (well, I’m in my 30s now, I don’t really mind you know how old I am! I don’t look 30s anyway… hahaha.. ), during the whole summer, I was house-sitting, then I went to HK for my very best friend’s wedding then to Taiwan for my annual POP self development workshop. Pretty much, the whole year, I wasn’t really home at all.
Relationship-wise, I went through 3 relationships which all turns out to be very dramatically affected me, during the relationships I was in complete pain, both in mind and in heart, because all 3 relationships are not what I desire but I was more attracted to the idea of NOT being alone than the men that I was seeing. The very last relationship had really completely put me in shock, ended up in a good way. Somehow, after all the dramas, I realized that I can’t rush into a relationship & head-over-heels a guy anymore. I have to learn to be patience and have faith, not like what my friend said today to have faith in the Universe to take care of everything for her, but instead, I take in ownership and have faith in my inner spirit who is part of me, my higher self that would lead me to where I desire.
This massive abundance feeling is overflowing into me since the new year comes, as if the whole 2012 was to prepare me for this moment, for this upcoming fully fruitful 2013. It’s a very mysterious but yet very joyful & peaceful kind of feeling that has been pouring onto me since I drove down to Seattle to visit my best best friend.
The whole drive to & from Seattle, I was just reciting the Heart Mantra. I’ve been citing the Heart Mantra since the last relationship because I want to find peace, and somehow that mantra creates such amazing effect, not only give me peace but also help me re-connect to my compassion towards others and mostly, myself.
I slowly feel the materials I been through in Level 6 during Oct, are sinking in. All this time that I attend POP workshops, in every class, I tried my very best to take notes, as much as possible, so I won’t miss a word or an idea our teachers said. But in this Level 6, because my right ring finger was injured and they put a big cast on my arm, I wasn’t able to write at all. Even after I came back, I volunteer in a Level 1 workshop, in which I still couldn’t write very smooth, but I was the translator, so I had to translate word to word verbatim. It is quite funny that I always wanted to record everything for future use, just in case, but I never read any of my notes after class. But the last few days of Level 6 and the recent Level 1, I finally realized that it is not the words or ideas that I copied down, it’s actually the moment that I was so focused on that made them memorable and deep into my heart.
2 nights ago, my other best friend in Toronto was drunk and troubled with boys again, as usual, but this time she was brave enough to raise her concerns to her man and they actually had a good talk and moving forward on their relationship. After all this time of me telling her to ask him and talk him, it finally happened. Me and my friend both agreed that this is an absolutely amazing beginning for a new start, not only for 2013, but actually for this new age of Aquarius. I can actually sense the shift in energy and I’m being in this new alignment of the stars of this Universe that have been pouring me with more and more abundance of everything. I can feel that my intuition is getting stronger and sharper. It’s pretty hard to describe in words, but I can sense the force of the Universe is flowing, it’s just amazing!!
Well, this is for sure a super wonderful beginning of another new age of this Universe. May we all re-ignite to our pure compassionate light;
May we all re-connect to our simple intuitive sensitive heart;
May we all re-cover to our original raw self from all suffers;
May we all re-turn to our most sacred safe place in our soul.
Dear dear God, please guide us~